Tuesday, January 26, 2010

day 357-365, two faced

Originally uploaded by Olivia Williams Photography
I wanted to revisit an older edit. So I took some new pictures with one of my old ideas and made it a little different. It was making it.

Monday, January 25, 2010

day 356-365

Originally uploaded by Olivia Williams Photography
I have been spending a lot of time thinking. Thinking about everything and anything. Some things I shouldn't think about some I should think more about. It was recently 4 years since my father passed away from a double brain aneurysm. It still feels like yesterday. I remember the call I got from my mother. With tears in her words she said "Olivia, I think your father is having a stroke, the ambulance is here and they are taking him to the hospital". Trying to calm my Mom down I remind her that lots of people have strokes and they turn out alright in the end. Well it wasn't a stroke and he was pronounced brain dead a few short hours later. I remember everything but it is all foggy. I remember feeling numb the next morning, walking around trying to put on a happy face for my kids who had no clue what happened. I didn't want to tell them until later that day. I wanted my oldest to go off to school thinking everything was normal. It was hard to think of my Dad being weak or sick. He was always such a strong man. I couldn't go in the hospital room to see him. I feel bad about that, but I didn't want my memory of my father to be of him in the hospital bed, dead, just hooked up to things to keep him alive so that his organs could go on to someone else. I couldn't do it. I couldn't do it. I wanted to walk in there and say good bye, but couldn't. That is all I thought about the next day, how I couldn't say good bye. I continued my day for my kids as normal as I could. I took my middle child off to a play date and the strangest thing happened on the way. He was looking out the window and said "good bye grandpa" he was only 2, he had no clue what was going on. I cried all the way to the play date. One of my best friends was waiting for me. We sat and talked while our two little two year olds played for a little bit. I still couldn't think right. I should of stayed home but needed the normal things in life. I sit now and think, he would of wanted it that way. He would of said "life goes on" or "it's just another day". I miss him.

Friday, January 15, 2010

day 355-365

Originally uploaded by Olivia Williams Photography
I don't know, running out of days for this self portrait project and running out of ideas. Can't wait to start the next 365, it will not be only selfies!

Monday, January 11, 2010

day 354-365

Originally uploaded by Olivia Williams Photography
Just something in Melissa and Anthony's house that I think is cute. Love how they put the hat on him. I know I have done another mirror picture but I am lacking my creative spark right now, so this is it. Hopefully the creative spark will come back soon.

Sunday, January 10, 2010

day 353-365

Originally uploaded by Olivia Williams Photography
Walking in the woods and reflecting on the move. There are some things and people I miss from home, but there is something about this town. There is untouched land, shops that look like houses. It is so different than what I am accustomed too. It feels like I have stepped back in time but everyone has modern stuff. I love this little town.

Saturday, January 9, 2010

day 352-365

Originally uploaded by Olivia Williams Photography
fun bokeh. :) that is all this one is about. My love for bokeh!

Friday, January 8, 2010

day 351-365, my knitted hat

Originally uploaded by Olivia Williams Photography
I finally knitted myself a hat. This was just a fast photo to fill in my daily self portrait.

Thursday, January 7, 2010

day 350-365

Originally uploaded by Olivia Williams Photography
I can't believe I am almost done with this round of 365 photos. Next one will not just be self portraits. I will toss some other photos in there, as long as it is a photo a day. Taking a self portrait everyday is hard. You get sick of seeing yourself. Well at least I did.

Wednesday, January 6, 2010

day 349-365

Originally uploaded by Olivia Williams Photography
It has taken a few weeks to adjust to the move. But I have now started this project up again to finish it so I can start it up again. I really enjoy this project and hope to really take a photo a day next time around.